Tuesday, December 27, 2005 . 10:21 PM
haix.. at my cousin's hse nw.. went town wif teng, van, clar, cong n koon jz nw.. they met early in e morning.. onli me, meet them at 4pm. din plan 2 come out de.. but i rili cant stop thinking abt him so decide to come out n hv a deep breathe. i rili feel so damn down.. i told u it rili sux lyk hell! omfg.. u wanna try? haix.. went Cine n Heeren again.. it's lyk everything looks so damn bored to me. had dinner at NYDC.. delicious bake rice. but it jz taste so plain to me. appealing but simple. haix.. rili dunno wat's wrong wif me.. i had woken up. i rili did. but his reappearance rili make me as if i'm dying e next sec.. haix.. watever. dun feel lyk doin anything.eyes were real puffy. wake up at 12pm. slept lyk abt 12 hrs. double of wat i usually did. i jz feel sux. mum din complain how late n piggy i m. 1st time ever. i noe she loves me. but he dun. he wun read tix. for sure. 100% guarantee. he never.
anw life goes on. haven been a saddist for 1 yr plus. heex~ so weird ya? smilex.. but dunno y it looks so dead lahx.. stop thinking!!! i want too but i've lost my perserverance. i give up. everything is at lost. wil wake up soon. n everyone! dun ask wat happen to me. i'll not say. it's e past. go dig my diary n read it if u got e ability. lips zipped.
i love u. u love me. but we'll never be together. that's fate ya? dunno. =(
